24 October 2013

Curious and Curiouser

I take myself very seriously.

Every once in the while, I give into temptation and Google myself. As a moderator of a community, I had to help manage an unfortunate situation recently which involved me wading through a lot of gossip, and hilariously enough, I came upon a bunch of things about myself. There seems to be someone or multiple people  out there really wanting to know about my personal life. Given how not-secret I am about what's happening with me, I find it crazy that if an individual is that curious they wouldn't ask me. Seeing the things that were floating around, however, made me wonder even more what else people had to say.

This is almost always a mistake, but I can handle it much better now than I could years ago. Despite reading things that are potentially hurtful, I would much rather know than not. I never want to walk into a room of a group of my peers and get that feeling someone is aware of something about me that I am not. I don't want to be shielded from anything; I want to feel strong and in control, knowing I can deal with whatever comes at me with grace and poise. At the same time, I understand the viewpoint of a lot of other Lolitas who would rather not be informed if something were to be said about them. Both are valid choices.

This is what I learned:

1. Some people don't like my outfits. Yes, I know, I make questionable choices and wear some weird shit sometimes. I get discouraged a little about dressing up now and again, but I care less and less about it, or at least I try to. I dress the way I do, and I have fun. There are those who think what I'm wearing is cute and those who take the pictures I post to tear them apart on other websites. Oh well, can't please everyone.

2. There seems to be some confusion about my work history. Let me break it down. I graduated from my university in 2010 with a Bachelor's in Natural Science with minors in Chemistry and Mathematics. After that, I began a graduate program in Library Information Sciences, but sadly, due to health issues, I had to postpone.

During that time, I worked at a library and stayed there for about two years and quit because believe it or not, the job was fairly physical, and y'all know with my jacked up leg, I can't stand for very long. After my ex and I separated, (*gasp* so controversial!!!1111one) I worked as an educator at the Adler Planetarium. I quit that job in January of 2013 when I left Chicago to move to the Bay Area where I worked for Harajuku Hearts / Angelic Pretty USA. Yes, actually employed there with a paycheck.

I left AP/HH in June of this year because I moved fairly far out from the city, and the commute was awful. I was also hoping to find something full-time, which I did. I became a banker, but due to a number of circumstances surrounding my health, I am on "medical leave." If you are super interested in that mess, look through my Facebook.

 I like to call my current situation "(f)unemployment." (The term is stolen from a friend.) While figuring things out/taking care of business, you best believe I am playing a crap-ton of Pokemon and watching every TV show I want to on Hulu Plus. Things could be worse.

3. My love life is apparently fascinating. Scratch that, my love life is definitely fascinating. I look back at the past year and a half of my life, and I can't believe it either. Seeing people either completely make things up about it or post things late by over a year is very funny. SPOILER ALERT: I never had an affair with my best friend in Chicago. If there's anything else you'd like to know, you can ask me here.

It's still weird to me that another person could be that interested in knowing these things. Another reason why I am as open as I am because I want to show people there's no shame in going through a rough time, having medical conditions, making mistakes, looking like crap now and again, searching for love, having a wild time, or a million other things I could list. I'll gladly own my life and share it with you, and as I do, you can watch me grow as well. I am so proud of how far I've made it and my work to continue to become more healthy. There are many days I seriously doubt myself, but I know I have to keep going, and in this struggle, I'll continue to wear a frill or two.

Are there things you fear sharing with others? Do you ever Google yourself? What do you find? How do you handle hearing gossip people spread about you? Tell me in the comments!


  1. This comment has been removed by the author.

    1. Hello lovely, (It looks like I accidentally posted twice, then trying to correct it, deleted both posts! here is the original:)
      I have been a follower of yours, your fashion, and you interesting goings-ons for a few years now.
      At first I thought you were much younger than you actually are. I was very glad to find out that you are around my age. It made me feel more of a kin-ship to you; through cute frilly things, darkness, cats, cookies, and great wine. You and I have both been through a lot in the past few years. And while I couldn't always find time to get on here and read your blog (let alone write any of my own), the ones I have read have always struck a cord within my own heart.
      Keep your chin up, never let what other people think about you get you down, and always be yourself.

      That being said; I also Google my own name (well, my stage name, but really, same thing) from time to time. Within my first several years of modeling and photography every time I Googled my name, V7 Stick, there was a pen that came up, followed by a hockey stick, and a flash game. I would not come up on any of my many many many social media profiles until well after the first few pages.
      After about year five I got really excited because I finally started coming up on page 2 of Google Web search, and page 1 of the Image search. Even though the images were usually only user icons and a few from my Model Mayhem profile, it really drove me to get higher up on the page.
      As of last year (my 9th year in the alternative modeling world) my website is the very first one that comes up on the web search. The model has finally surpassed the pen!
      Now on to bigger an better fish. Google and my website are only stage one. Now it's time for me to get sponsors, and more fans sending me presents. I just have to figure out how to make that happen.
      The ultimate goal; my very own cat cafe and performance venue in Michigan. <3 Some day. <3

      As far as gossip; most of that has been offline for me, I either set people straight by telling them the whole story myself, or I just let them think what they want. People will either believe you or they won't. Either way; it can only get to you if you let it.
      Like I said, keep your head up and stay awesome.
      Hopefully I will get to meet you some day.

      <3 (^..^)~V7 Stick

  2. Ngày nay trên thị trường nội thất có nhiều thương hiệu sản phẩm nội thất khác nhau như Hòa Phát, The City….với nhiều mẫu mã sản phẩm cũng như chất liệu nhằm đáp ứng tất cả nhu cầu của khách hàng. Nên khi bạn có nhu cầu mua bàn làm việc giá rẻ tphcm hay những sản phẩm nội thất khác bạn sẽ dễ dàng tìm được nhà cung cấp cho phù hợp với nhu cầu của bạn. Và hôm nay chúng tôi giúp bạn cách chọn mua được mẫu bàn làm việc cho văn phòng tốt nhất:
    Về hình thức, những mẫu ban van phong gia re tphcm hiện nay trên thị trường cần có kiểu dáng sang trọng, mẫu mã mới lạ, độc đáo kèm theo màu sắc đột phá dễ dàng tạo cảm giác thân thiện, thoải mái cho người dùng. Thiết kế kiểu dáng của bàn không cần cầu kỳ chỉ với thiết kế đơn giản, gọn gàng, chất liệu gỗ tiêu chuẩn mang lại sự an toàn cho người sử dụng.
    Giống như chất liệu làm các nội thất khác như bàn giám đốc cao cấp, vách ngăn di động. Về chất liệu, bàn được thiết kế với chất liệu cao cấp, chất lượng phù hợp với khí hậu nóng ẩm của Việt Nam, đồng thời một số loại bàn còn có khả năng chống cháy, chống mối mọt, ẩm mốc. Mặt bàn thường được làm từ chất liệu gỗ công nghiệp cao cấp như melamine, laminate, MDF… với nhiều tính năng bền đẹp, chắc. Cạnh bàn thiết kế kiểu uốn con tạo nên sự mềm mại cho người sử dụng và tránh bị tổn thương khi va chạm vào góc nhọn. Ngoài bàn ra thì ghế văn phòng giá rẻ hcm cũng là thiết bị không thể thiếu trong văn phòng làm việc của bạn và cách chọn mẫu ghế như thế nào để có sự kết hợp hài hòa giữa bàn và ghế, không gian nội thất văn phòng. Tạo cảm giác thoải mái cho nhân viên trong thời gian ngồi làm việc tại công ty.